Some moments are like a whiff of romance from the bygone days that bring me back in the days where things were like ivory, smooth and simple. I feel afresh as those impulses of energy run in my veins. Happy were those times when I was in school and school and home were my world. My Word, which I covered with my little steps, was so sweet however I was so ignorant of those happy days. I had friends. I had fights with them. I had time to run in the fields to count who can win a run. Wining and loosing was a part of the play, easily acceptable part of life. But things are now not so simple. Now I work hard to have a very few friends the rest seems more like competitors. Wining is not easy whereas I can’t afford to be a loser. Now it is a game to play with all means. Everyone is clever, cunning and street smart. This life is often so painful. It consumes all our life saving energy, always busy with some destructive thoughts, always weaving plots to play dirty. Sometimes I look back and remember how sweet where the days when we were reading our nursery rhyme: “Humpty Dumpty sat on wall.”

Who knew that these rhymes we were reading loud to remember them by heart in our nursery will leave such an important influence in our life. How could I know that these simple sounding plays of words that were written by Lewis Carol had such a deep hidden meaning and that could remain in my heart for the lifetime and teach me its deep meaning about the fallacy of life.

Our class teachers were strict and the fear of their anger and punishment made us to mug-up this poem. Soon it was fun to recite.

Now I know simple days passed so easily from us without knowing how simple they were.  Memories of those days are schooling new things to me even today and giving me the undulating and intonation of vibrations of joy. I am happy to feel that those were my days when we, friends in a playful, jovial mood entered the premises of our school and had fun while learning new chapters from our books. Those frolicking times had so much debonair things in life. Simple learning and simple tests but now life is tough.

We had place for everything: a classroom for study, cafeteria for lunch and all the rest places to play. I remember them all as yesterday when we had so many places to play, so many friends to share our lunch boxes with. No matter whose mother cooked what, we were always ready to share and eat.

Time like a puff of wind passed. We were so happy that there were no walls of caste and religion, no rich or poor were dividing our minds. We were belonging to one school, wearing one uniform and sharing our lunch.

Slowly we grew old. Our requirements increased. Our bonding became weak and the cobweb started to spread its ugly net all over our mind. Our uniform became stylish, our friendship became phony, and our words became selective.

I found myself weak without friends. Life seemed a cunning game for success, a rat run for money, power and lust.

I felt, I was in a foreign land, everything seemed stranger and I sat alone battling with my own thoughts and I found the contradicting thoughts made me more confused and soon like a Humpty dumpty I found myself sitting on the wall of confusion. I really feared from having a great fall.

The meaning of fall was coming closer to me with its multi-fold of experience. I found I had come out on a long mental journey in an obscure wood of wisdom and vice. I need to learn to clear the cobwebs and understand the true purpose of life.

I often think money is means and not the purpose of life but finding the fine balance often distracts me. I feel I am divided or may be confused.

It is true clarity comes only after the ashen taste of experiences in life. I have tasted some of my share probably. It was of course arid. But if I look around there are thousand and one example of people who passed the long tunnel of dark days and reach the lights. Shall I wait?

I know that our experience can make or break us. However our one experience can’t predict the same in future. The whole range of experience suddenly sometime changes and bitterness of life suddenly gets effaced. Indeed I have read this in books. Books are also written by our life.

This idea of confusion helps us to learn more and understand the life, not just around us but from the time less known to us. I know learning is always a slow process. Life is full of ups and downs and the fall is always great only because it makes the learning more interesting.

The days of my childhood learning remain a main part of my life. I got the idea of life. The great wall of Humpty always helped me to make the wall of strength and support.

I can say several people have had acquired high positions in life, fat earning, high living and better social status that made them powerful, influential. I can say misfortune doesn’t leave their life. I feel their life at some point of time looks like an empty egg and is no good for anyone. They acquired all with foul means and can always play foul.

The real purpose of life is not fulfilling material gains and kills anyone who comes in the way. I sometime think life is so full of material things. Man made things have become so important that God given things have become trivial, small and futile.

In life everything has a worth, value and price but a few things which God has bestowed us are priceless. Insufficient attention over the divine somehow cut the rich vein of inner peace and the transformation of small things to the wonders of life.

I still wonder about my nursery rhymes which were so powerful that their influence kept my heart full of virtues.